This past week has been filled with emotion, both good and bad. We started out the week on a high--David's mom came into town Tuesday so we were so excited about seeing her and showing her around our new home. Then Wednesday I get a call from my mom telling me that my family dog was on her last leg and they felt it was time to take her in. We were all so sad as she has been such a good dog to us all. I spent all day yesterday knowing that it would be her last day and I wouldn't be able to say goodbye. When I got the call from my mom, I literally felt emotionally exhausted. Then to top it all off, I spent a couple hours last night dealing with issue after issue trying to get my books ordered for my classes beginning next week. I was missing home. I was missing the simplicity of home. I was missing the comfort of knowing the source of our income and knowing our families were right there if we needed anything. I was missing the fact that at home, I always had a friend I could call if I needed some girl time. Needless to say, I went to bed last night feeling overwhelmed and defeated, crying myself to sleep.
But while I was crying myself to sleep I was also praying, and this is what God reminded me of: Stepping out of my will and into His is not always easy, but it's always good. We are not promised a stress free life when we choose Him. In fact, we are promised that there will be trials. However, I have been finding peace in the promise that when I am feeling overwhelmed, He's right beside me. In the book Jesus Calling by Sarah Young I came across this reminder from God: "When you decide on a course of action that is in line with My will, nothing in heaven or on earth can stop you." So I pick up my head and keep going, because I am in line with His will. In my weakness I allow Him to intervene, and when I feel like I can't, He can. I left the simplicity and comfort of home...but I don't want simplicity anymore. I want Him.
Samuel in his new home
2 years ago